la perdida

today was the first time I’ve ever dreaded a long drive alone.

it gave me way too much time to think about things that I need distracting from.
and driving with blurred vision from my teary eyes probably wasn’t the safest thing.

I hardly even knew this little girl, but the bond that her mother and her had was something I will always remember. I’m grateful that I got to witness such love. They had such a profound impact on me in the few hours that I got to spend with them, and it’s the strangest thing. I don’t think I’ve ever had to deal with something like this before.

Thank goodness for supportive friends and family. If I’m having to cope like this, I can’t imagine what the family is going through. Or maybe that’s my problem, I emphasize with the family so much that it hurts as if I was part of her family.

I can’t handle death.