la perdida

my heart hurts
today was the first time I’ve ever dreaded a long drive alone.
it gave me way too much time to think about things that I need distracting from.
and driving with blurred vision from my teary eyes probably wasn’t the safest thing.
I hardly even knew this little girl, but the bond that her mother and her had was something I will always remember. I’m grateful that I got to witness such love. They had such a profound impact on me in the few hours that I got to spend with them, and it’s the strangest thing. I don’t think I’ve ever had to deal with something like this before.
Thank goodness for supportive friends and family. If I’m having to cope like this, I can’t imagine what the family is going through. Or maybe that’s my problem, I emphasize with the family so much that it hurts as if I was part of her family.
I can’t handle death.


a very sweet little baby girl, who I couldn’t help but fall in love with, won’t see tomorrow.
rest in peace, sweetheart.
you were the light in your mother’s eyes, and you will be deeply missed.

إنا لله وإنا إليه راجعون

(Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji’un, ‘Surely we belong to Allah and to Him shall we return’.)

I guess that’s all there is to say.

Help, I’m alive.

  Women and men alike should watch this complete documentary. I especially recommend this for parents. It’s sad to see how misrepresented we are in this male-dominated society. Really. And I honestly felt even better about covering up (hijab) because I’m disgusted with how women are seen as objects. I know that this isn’t a new issue, but it’s something that I’ve been reminded of and after viewing this documentary tonight, I feel a new sense of empowerment and I hope to be a role model for other girls to become more comfortable in their skin and to pay less attention to societal expectations of them.
  Girls, young women, and adults should take leadership roles in their communities and educate others about the issue at hand. Even doing something as little as stopping someone when they say something that is degrading to women, whether it’s guys talking about girls, or girls talking about other girls. Girls are VERY tough on girls, and that’s something that shouldn’t be overlooked. This isn’t something that affects one person; this is something that every woman and man is dealing with, whether they know it or not. This is today’s society, and although it’s hard to escape the ideology set in place right now, I feel strongly about the near future with more motivated, educated, and strong women stepping into leadership roles.