I’m so glad I now realize who’s worth my time and who isn’t. It makes things a lot easier for me because of my busy schedule. I hardly have time for anyone, really, but I know that the free time I do get will be spent with family or people I actually care to see. Before it was all about fitting everyone in before going to school but now, I really don’t care. I’m just kind of doing my own thing, and working two jobs. It’s a challenge, and it’s a huge change from the past summers that I spent doing absolutely nothing, which is what I like. It’s weird because with all this work and not a lot of free time, you would think that I would just want to quit it all and relax until sophomore year. Not the case. I like being productive, I like having a schedule, and I like earning my own money. Also, I chilled way too much in school for way too many years and I’m hoping that this set routine will help me adjust to my fall schedule. And now that I know what I want to do, I really need to focus on school and do what I can to get to where I want to be. I’m so ready. I’m really happy right now, and it’s kind of strange. I’m not doing anything particularly exciting and I rarely have time to myself, but something is really different about me and I just feel so much more free and content.
I miss school. I’m a weirdo, I know. But I’ve met the coolest people over the last year and after spending every day with them, walking across the hall or just down the block to see them, it feels weird that they’re not with me. When we’re reunited, we’ll be attached at the hip.
Also, I’ve been having the coolest dreams ever lately. If I remembered any of them, I would’ve started writing a book. But it’s me. So I don’t.
There’s only us, there’s only this. Forget regret- or life is yours to miss. No other road, no other way. No day but today.