keeps gettin’ better

  Right now, I’m feelin’ good. Everything is coming together for me, and I don’t even remember the last time this happened, if it did. Last week I got into my first Social Work class of my college career. I’m thrilled about it, and I actually feel motivated to do well because it is the starting level class of my Social Work major. I haven’t ever really felt so encouraged, I’m usually anxious to start classes but I never keep up a steady studying technique. This is something I hope to change this semester because I feel like I’ve accomplished so much in the past year and I want to continue to do so.
  I was selected to be an RA in the freshmen dorms for this fall, which was a delightful surprise. I’m a pretty confident person, but I’m not very optimistic. I won the “Most Positive” superlative among the sisters in the MSA, but honestly, I never expect anything good to happen to me, but I don’t let it show. People tell me it’s horrible to think that way, but it really does prepare me for let-downs. So when I got the RA position, I was so relieved, and it made me even more excited for the fall semester.

  This weekend was amazing, I went to West Virginia (photo above). Everyone asks me why we went, there’s nothing there. But that’s exactly why. To get away from all the noise and chaos of home. And, It’s the nice kind of nothing, the kind of nothing everyone needs once in a while. The skies were carefully painted with the brightest pastels, and like a dream, we drove through clouds and saw them floating across the mountains beside us. We touched the highest point of the state and relaxed, easily forgetting about anything we had to return to.
  While on our weekend vacation there, I got a phone call offering me a job! And of course, I accepted. It will be my first real job, and I couldn’t be happier. I had planned on working this summer, as many hours as I could get, to save up and help out with school expenses and to travel. I feel so independent and I’m anxious to get started.
  Also, I finally realized what I want to do in life, career-wise. It’s perfect for me, I don’t know how I never thought of it before, but it’s exactly what I love, and what I’ve been interested in since I was young. Now that I know what I want to do, I feel so much more confident about what I’m studying. It’s the greatest feeling!
  All I can say is Alhumdullillah, and thank God for everything, always. I am so grateful for all that I’ve been blessed with. 2010 has been a very rewarding year so far, iA it is only the beginning.

Lessons Learned

  Yes, something has changed within us all, but it isn’t necessarily a bad thing. I was always scared of growing apart from anyone close to me, and now I think it was without reason. It’s terribly sad but at the same time, where I lost a couple of friends, I gained many more who welcomed me with open arms. My freshmen year of college is over. It was definitely an experience. There hasn’t been a year when I learned more than I did in this past one. I regret a lot of things, but at the same time, I learned a great deal about people and about myself. I’ve changed so much this year, I’ve learned a lot about honesty, trust, respect, fairness, and friendship. I still would like to apologize to all the people I’ve hurt and to all the people who I involved in matters they shouldn’t have been concerned with. A wise upperclassman (Kairshma, I love you) once told me, “Everyone has their rough drafts.” And now we’re all just working on our final pieces 🙂
  For my first year in college, so many people have opened my eyes to what’s important. Friends showed their appreciation for me, which I am grateful for because I had always felt like I was taken for granted before. I will always be there for each and every one of my friends, no matter how close they are to me. Friendship has always been something I valued greatly.
  I finally feel like I have my priorities in order (although I could do a bit more studying). Aileen and I were talking the other night for quite some time about how much we’ve grown and really found ourselves this year, and about where we want to be in a couple of years. I intend on surrounding myself with good-hearted people from now on and continuing to focus on what’s most important to me (faith, family, school). Thank you to all of those who helped me to grow and become who I am today. Hopefully this will continue and I will accomplish a great deal in the years to come.
  Also, I am looking forward to a productive summer filled with lots of hard work and even more reading. Frequent visits to the public library-YES!